It was one of “those” days. I was sick, nearly dropping in my tracks with a bad cold. We were on a tight schedule. The weekend had been over-crowded and I had left my Bible with the notes for an upcoming conference locked in the church with no way of retrieving them before we had to leave the motel at 6:45 am the next morning. All this combined with a nagging apprehension of several coming responsibilities made me very vulnerable to the ever-lurking enemy of fear. Once my armor was cracked, he slipped into my mind and a good case of the “what if’s” set in.
They spread through my consciousness at epidemic rate. What if I just can’t measure up to what has been asked of me? What if a catastrophe occurs on this trip? What if things don’t go well with my children? What if something happens to my grandchildren? What if I arrive there to sick to function? What if what I say is misunderstood? Finally, all the “what if’s” made both my present and future seem as insecure as walking on Jello.
Complacently, I just sat, first in the car and then on the plane, my will locked into neutral and my mind racing in reverse. The spreading cloud of fear rapidly brought gloom to every area of my consciousness. It took awhile before my memory bank clicked on. “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed (stopped) on thee” (Isaiah 26:3).
Uncertainties of the future are the inevitables of life. The only constant in life is change. God alone is fixed and sure. In Him there is not even a shadow of turning. He is so securely, solidly fixed that if you could see His shadow it would remain completely motionless. So when I fell shaky with a good case of negative “what ifs” I discipline my mind to an unchanging all loving, totally caring God I can absolutely trust and make it all stop there. It is the best prescription I know for healing peace.
“After that though shalt have known that the heavens do rule…it may be a lengthening of thy tranquility” (Daniel 4:26-27).